Last month was insanely busy for me, between blogging, moving house, moving city, road tripping to Cornwall & prepping for a new job life in general was getting on top of me. So much so that my anxiety manifested in a whole new way.
Imposter syndrome is basically feeling like you don’t deserve your achievements, that you aren’t good at what you do, that you are a fraud and someone is going to call you out on the fact that you are just pretending. So with this I stopped writing my blog, I stopped putting together posts, stopped writing ideas down and stopped any prep work for my new job, and the longer the break went on the more anxious I became. My self worth was at an all time low and the added stress of moving just tipped the balance. To be perfectly honest I was pretending that it was the house move that was getting in the way, that I had no time to do anything else, no time to write but I was just lying to myself. The realisation came when I had to sit down & write a proposal for a new venture I’m taking part in, being forced to sit down and be creative was the best thing that could have happened, coupled with talking the ear off my other half & best girls I feel like I’m finally getting back to myself. The anxiety isn’t gone, but knowing where it’s coming from and how to deal with it is key.
So I’m looking forward to a new start, Autumn is bringing so many changes and I’m trying to embrace them all, one day at a time.
Sunglasses – Beacons Closet : Bracelets – Annie Haak